.sinful pleasures

A confession of a couple of quite bad addictions I happen to suffer from and don't even bother to get treatment for.

1- Shisha (Hookah) 

This is an addiction that was conceived in happiness and leisure, raised in rage and depression, has grown to be my only refuge and is consuming every last part of me (including my honesty).

First time I have huffed a puff was approximately 4 years ago, when the females in my family were all around, and new beautiful bonds were forming, along with all these sweet moments it was introduced by an older and rather awesome one of us. But things happen and people depart, physically of course, we cannot ever be detached emotionally, we integrate each other. I am not assuming, but entirely positive that I took off the habit by myself because subconsciously, it reminded me of a much better, much simpler time, it's like I have extracted the parts of those memories that is the easiest to recreate and went ahead with it.

The bad part is, I am not being able to let go, I have tried, financial crisis didn't stop me, physical damage didn't stop, disapproval of loved ones didn't effect me.. I don't know what else well, and I don't want to get to the moment where I no longer have a choice.

My father was a heavy smoker, and he quit due to a severe illness he encountered, my uncle passed away because of his tobacco consumption, this is exactly what I do not want, I want to quit while I am still strong, but I am honest enough with myself to admit that I do not see it happening anytime soon...




To be continued..

.bigotry level: Arab

Not just recently, but for a very long time now, I have noticed that we (as Arabs) were designed to believe that we are the most discriminated against group of people on the globe, we were fed this fact so exaggeratively that when signs of it do surface we become absolutely irrational.

I am not at all denying that it is true, the ignorance of some and the media's exploitation of that ignorance by throwing stereotypes in the air to sprinkle the icings on their minds are backing up that fact like no other. I don't want to run the guilt machine or fish in turbid waters, but call it Karma.

When you start making jokes about how the Jordanian soccer team lost to Japan's because they couldn't tell who's who of offense and defense, when you treat foreign labor workers as if they are lower species designed especially for your service, when you consider people who have a skin tone darker than yours Abeed (slaves), when you hate someone from your own country because you idiot come from another area, then yes, do call it Karma.

Discrimination against any ethnicity/religion is always wrong and unjustified in anyway, but it's like punching people around all day then turning to the legal system because someone poked me. Respect people and treat them fairly in order for that to happen to you.

#JustAsimpleRant